For most of my adult life, I had this nagging feeling there was a purpose for my life that I was missing out on. My mom saw it in me too, and did everything she could to encourage me to find it. She really didn’t want to see me settle for less.
You see, when you know there’s something you’re supposed to be doing and aren’t, there’s an inner struggle that occurs. And it’s pretty constant. To those of you wrestling with that, I know how difficult it can be.
I’ve had some pretty great jobs, but I was never happy because I wasn’t doing the thing I knew I was called to do. Problem was, I didn’t know what that thing was.
That is, until I saw Malak’s precious, broken-hearted, exhausted face appear on the screen of my iPhone from the comfort of my own bed a couple of years ago.
She wrecked me. But she also brought years of searching, wrestling, and yearning into such clear, concise focus. I cried half the night after I saw the video of her—newly orphaned, alone, and hungry. And I finally knew what I wanted to do. I told friends the next day my soul would not rest until I was writing grants for Preemptive Love Coalition.
Spoiler alert: I now write grants for Preemptive Love Coalition. And in my time here, so many brave and resilient people like Malak have taught me so much about strength, about gratitude, about violence, about peacemaking.
If you know in your heart there is something you’ve been called to accomplish in this lifetime, then listen, listen, listen. Keep seeking, keep wrestling, keep praying. It was a really long, hard road until I found my thing—and I know I’ve still got an equally long road ahead with lots of twists and turns. But for right now, I know I am where I am supposed to be.
Just don’t wait until the big thing comes along. Do whatever little things your heart calls you to do today. Write today. Sing today. Paint today. Mend a broken relationship sooner than later. Buy a coffee for a stranger now. Do a kind thing. Say a kind word.
We all have a part to play in restoration, in rebuilding, in remaking the more beautiful world our hearts yearn for and know is possible.
May you find your Malak. She’s a world-changer and she helped me learn how to be brave. May she have peace, hope, and health all of her days.